Friday, March 31, 2006
7:35 PM
An extra Look at Myself In the Mirror..
just came out from bath.. was combing my hair.. then i suddenly feel like looking at myself for an extra moment.. and a thought went through my mind.. am i not good looking?? haha.. just came to think of it, i realised that at the age of 21 i didnt get into any relationships before.. so is it because of my look or is it becos of my personality? am i a bad person?? haha.. doubts jus went through my head..
besides that, recently ask quite a no. of frens this:" do u believe that no1 ever court me before?" and guess what, all of them said they wouldnt believe it.. oh well.. should i be glad becos that means they proved that there's nothing wrong with my looks or personality.. haha.. i dont know... i only know that it's the truth that no1 ever court me be4 and my life is pretty sian.. haha.. and i am always match making pple to spice up my life... yep..
but i think it cant be that i have high standards in searching for my white horse prince.. although i and ah yun are in the "wai mao xie hui club".. but we all know that we dont really care about looks.. haha.. at least that is true for me.. as for ah yun..eh.. haha.. for my very close pals.. u shld have known that i dont go for looks, dont go for $.. i only hope to find someone with a kind heart, humorous, caring and no smoking!! haha.. its really simple criterias.. but i guess maybe fate didnt want to let me meet my future husband that soon..
and i think god doesnt want me to get into relationships for the past 21 years becos it probably knows that i am someone who will go really an extra mile for whoever i may love... and maybe even more miles compared to a normal person may do.. i have to say whoever is being admired or liked by me is sure very "xinfu".. hehe.. anyway, maybe its becos of this that god wants me to love myself for the time being and deliver extra love to my family and frens around me..
just wanna write down some thoughts before i go into the mugging session for exams.. or doing accounting tutorial... sianz...
PS: hope i find my true love soon~
